Children and their feelings....

I am going to be honest here....I have never blogged before but I know a lot of people who do. They have told me that it really helps to get their feelings out on the table. So I am going to take a stab at this.

I have wanted to do this for a long time but just haven't taken the time. My children have been through hell and back with their dad (or so called). He has been in and out of their lives since we divorced in 2005. They are so confused. They don't know where they stand with him nor when they will get to see him. He has been in Iraq for the 2nd time again for the last 9 or 10 months. Kolton is 13 now and he is having the most difficult time with it all. He has been in counseling for a very long time. We finally have found a wonderful therapist. He is so distraught over his dad and doesn't have anyone to take it out on but Andy. I feel bad for Andy but he understands to a point. He loves Andy so much and his therapist has told us that Andy is who he really thinks of as his "father." We have been having a lot of issues with Kolton at school. He is depressed but we are hoping that his new therpist can work through all of this with him. Tanner is Tanner. He is precious and seems like he is just in his own world. He is doing well for the most part. He has a lot of anger inside too but doesn't show it like Kolton does. He is also seeing a counselor. She is really good with him. Landen......well Landen is my little pride and joy. I honestly believe that God gave him to me to help me get through all of the pain over the last however many years. It is funny how things work out. I didn't want to have another child. It was the last thing we needed. We weren't in a good place in our marriage and Lord knows we couldn't afford it. But somehow God brought us through it all and look where we are today. I am VERY happily remarried to a wonderful man. I have 3 precious children and a step daughter as well now. The Lord has truly blessed me even though we had to go through what we have. I just ache daily for my children and what they have to go through. I know that God has plans for all of us and that he knows what is best. I would just ask that you pray for us and that Andy and I can be the parents that we need to be for all of these kids.

I will close for now but I will keep blogging.